Speechless Straight and thrilling drama

Well, I am not sure whether to said it is nice or not. As a 18, I must said that it is not suitable for under 18. Need matured mind to decode the meaning inside the movie. I feel like messing around with my hair with both of my hand when things get complicated. I like the suspen part of this movie. It makes be predict and predict which I win for multiple time. But till the end I still being manipulated by the director. Lots of killing and kissing part.

Foodie Goodie

French Fried Rice

Food I recently ate. Haha. Take so long to upload my recent things. Things being delay cause I feel tired. Now is morning 2.33a.m. Finish doing my club paperwork. ^^ Will have my breakfast later on. Haha.

Song inspired me hehe.. share with you guys. Lets work together to make the event come true.

Bubbly

I will do it better. Sorry, I know the sound hurts your ear haha. Still beginner. Growing on the way.

Through my window

Such a lovely and relieve picturesquare. This week I have quite a busy but lovely week. I meet and get to know more about my collegue. We are now not so call collegue but friends and brothers and sisters. They are really nice people who were selected from the good one. We work together, make ufn of each other, enjoy the every single day and care for each other.

Two day pass, I finally grab on the roadside mic. Together with my friends sing "Through my Window". It was definatedly a memorable memory for me. As I seldom get the chance for suit myself well in a big group. So whenever I got the chance to be with a groupie.. I cherish and pray silently this moment will never gone. So for so call. I pray.....for each and everyone be happy like the moment now we spent together. The scent was actually heart breaking. We sing, we play, we take pictures, we work, we can be seen in serious manner, funny manner even naughty manner. I was blessed haha. Lovely and thanks.

Lots of tiny bits happen this week, which fulfil the eager of mine. I played my very first song, I share my life experience with about 40 plus coursemates during the SHOW AND TALK SESSION. I have control very much about my emotion to finish talking everything. I miss something cause I still think of keeping it. KNowing my group is such a wonderful kids and was happy and greatful to watch their presentation. They have different characteristic but they show the innocent and childhood like gesture when they talk about their things. Funny and cute.

NOt to say, this week finally meet with WU SENSEI. Love her more than words. Still so lovely, we talk about Christmas and also taking pictures.

My first guitar progression as a BEGINNER

Step in and out of the death zone

Yesterday I have just discovered that I actually love this kind of movie. ^^ So in love with the character. They are perfect. So more action. Clean and the angle is just nice. Lead me around the fantasy world.

Previous of whole day depress has end. They are seems like an episode of life, which I have said before they are just like wave. I reach the negative amplitude but soon bounce back. Thanks for my closest friends and family support, advice and etc. I most important I want to thanks is Bro Sung Ha. He saves my life when I am about to stepping out of the window. My life saver. Life can end with many ways, like, you want it to be certain pattern (suicide), or without your knowledge (murdered), with your last breathe (sickness),unavoidable (accident)...etc. When you choose to live there is always being a reason.

I am just a shadow of an dark angel, who do not feel like stepping out of my room, who do want to talk at all, do not want to do anything at all, feeling depress when the more people who concern me, call me, sms me, msn nugg me... the more they ask about why and how adnormal am I since I step on this ground. The more I feel like leaving the world. But try to look back the world. It is still a value for me to stay. My mission to repay the world and make it a better world is not yet complete. That's the reason why I was born. Just like animal, creatures or anything. They fight so hard just to protect and give birth to tiny little things which bring hopes and happiness to the world.

Loving things keep on surrounding us, it is kind of was if we keep on blindfolding ourself and not to see the real world. Silly am I too.

My heart is raining

Time passes, I am a walking pointer. Looking at nothing but me. This week what I can conclude is a bit lost of myself. When I was on my shoes, I wonder can this second stop? Can I rewind and walk back, can I stop where I suppose to go.... etc... I am not sure.

Recently kind of busy with paper work. People come and go till I have really no time for them. At night when I come to a stop and recall. I am lonely and I am mad of it. I am not sure why. How and what should I do. I like to be busy but when everything stop I just kind of lost. I seem like needing something but something that I can also not explain. It s kind of complicated. When I don't have it I carving for it. When I got it I try best to leave it. How should I put it.

I don't know.. feeling like... like... haiz..

PLay~

Today is a guitar day for me, I spent my whole day on it not until I feel my finger are worn. I learn to strum. The sound still hurts my ear so hope I can get on it soon. ^^ Thanks for Bro Marty for tutoring me. Thanks very much. I still cannot do what he teaches but when he is doing it, only words to describe flawess. I do realy hope when I get to know more about my guitar, the first guitarist I want to meet is Bro Jung Sung Ha. Haha. Not a joke. Hehe.. my dream.

Well, my health condition is still the same. My voice is still thick nothing seems to help. Hmm, I will and must recover soon. I don't like to speak with thick voice which I also do not know what am I saying even my gramma misrecognize my sound. So.. so..

Nebula Reunion

Today, I accidentally meet my new-known friend, Bro Mohommad. It is funny when talking about how we meet. It was on my birthday. When I was walking to school, he suddenly approach me and ask me about the way to school. He pointed else where which is still in the compound of condominium saying "is this MMU?" haha.. he is probably a freshie and a foreigner.

I don't mind showing him the way to go by keeping him side by side with me. Since then I get to know a lot of him. He is a humble guy, saying that he has no good english pronounciation. To me, your English is far more better than others. ^^ Today, I meet him once again he still decent looking one. Telling me that he got a proper place to live in and thanks me again and again. He is kind of cute cause when I get to know his name he said "nice name huh?" I never have a chance to tell him my name but who knows? The nebula tells the story...

Secondly, another story rewrite again within the friction produce by the white feather on the paper page.... I am not sure who is this guy again. Friendly and bubbly. Dunno his name once again. I am not sure I am gonna to know more UNKNOWN friend in future. He just walk pass me and said "may I join you". For sure, lolx. He is always the one who start the conservation but he tells me a lots of craps and seems like a lifesucker. Sorry, but guess you are a bright one ~ all the best to you. Health concious guy lolx.

Third, meet Sis Maria again the foreigner. Well, I don't manage to call her cause I have thick voice with flu teasing me lolx. Dizzy now.. talk later. So sick no love songs.. so .. so so o..

The Melody

Looking back on the calender of the past. Big red circle I did on my calender this year. It is my parternal granny 1st anniversary funeral. I remember it clearly the water beats crawling away from the head of the pipe rythmicly at my home. I feel there is something wrong going to happen. I seldom believe in my six sense.

"Ring..." the phone rang.

"Ring...." it rings the second time.

"Ring Ring.." third time it goes.

My mum is calling. With the steady voice, she said "my gramma passed away peacefully this afternoon". I know among my family member the one hurt the most might be my father. Cause I can see and feel the commitment and filial he shows indirectly all these year since I was born. I already pick up the sense of my brain when I am still holding the phone....

Things go on and on. Time pass like I am standing on the pavement unmovable starring at the traffic light go red and green again and again. Cars and people gushing horizontally and vertically within the grayscale of my memory. This is the first time I experience death. Before that I have no memory at all. I do not even know what is it about. Now, hearing the clock tickling I realise people come and go. They are mortal.

Wish my lately beloved gramma always happy and peace in the ocean blue sky.